after a silent conversation, ryan & i wanted to do more of these — especially to use it as a way to resolve our thinking about thesis (for next year).
co-incidentally, gwen saw a video of me & cody doing brainretch, and wanted to do something similar with me.
so, the three of us met on a summer evening; got into a classroom and silently conversed.
i tried to use zsh to delete raw photos and only preserve the jpegs, but in doing so, i lost all the pictures. however, the conversation was still interesting; i:
- realized i need to articulate why i want to do what i want to do
- gwen & ryan pushed me to think of why my (self-centered) thesis would be important to someone in the audience.
- i realized that my original backstory (visa, anxiety, one-offs) is important for people to know where this is coming from. otherwise they confuse with just another ‘diy’ experiment.
- the point of it ‘testing’ my education is somehow not coming through. i think it would be nice for me to talk to someone about this; i can’t figure out whom.
^ when i wrote that, my immediate instinct was to try & run to a professor, and reach out for office hours. i decided against it — i think i need to take more decisions myself, and become more independent in being able to defend my line of thought.
