there is a faint chance that i’ll capture this conversation accurately with my notes. so, this is the paper we used to talk:
i was reminded that the thesis just needs to be honest, and that i was trying to make it not so.
i need to stop the ruse, and articulate — without the bullshit — of my reasons for doing what i’m doing.
there is a thread i’m following; some intuition; some connections to the world, and i’m refraining from that being the center of my work. ==i’m failing to — as nikolai & tanika put it — lean into it.==