i’ve been in consistent therapy for 4 months now. today, nausheen & i dived into my tendency to feel superior at times; something that also came up in my conversation with tanika williams, and felt in an earlier conversation with prachi (and many others).
i realise that i’m jealous of my peers, for being able to do other things apart from work, and that stems from the inferiority that i have in comparison. i am surrounded by smarter people, more original thinkers, and more experienced professionals.
time is the only thing in my control, and i’m using every bit of it to work — in an attempt to keep up. maybe this is why it feels like there’s too little time.
i need to balance this before i crash, and give myself the permission to enjoy once in a while; something that came up in my conversation with dan-o-sullivan too.
she also asked me to look for the good in people, beyond the work they produce. we also realised that i don’t know how to make friends, or enjoy; something that sakina & shobhan (along with others) had previously expressed.
i also must make time to rest, because rest is as important as work . perhaps this is what the kind-hearted folk at itp mean, when they ask me to go home, or remind me that it’s just been two weeks (and i have two more years of this).