sakina sent me an a.r-rahman song out-of-the-blue, performed by the berklee-college-of-music in 2014:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qxmVVa-9xls
i came back today after a difficult intro-to-physical-computing class. it felt like there was no space for my curiosity, even though it is related to the topic. there perhaps won’t be — a class is meant to be the collective space for 16 students, with an instructor who also wants to teach us new material.
increasingly, i feel that i have lesser space in that class. and i think that’s the way it should be — i just need to listen, and exercise the rest of my curiosity outside of it.
i then walked out of that classroom. everyone around me was making things — i couldn’t take it.
400 students make new things every single week. i am one of them. frankly, i am nothing.
then i looked at those students at berklee who graduated. some of them became singers that the world knows. some of them i will never know of. perhaps no one will.
but they all sang with love. and they pursued their degree to satisfy their curiosity.
so, eventually, i came back to why i came to itp — i promised myself two years to exercise my curiosity, and i am going to be relentless with it.
it may not lead me anywhere. but i’m going to try my hardest.
i stuck myself these reminders:
