0506 a.m.
brain tormented by equations; possible-circuitry; conceptual wanderings.
the sudden pang of loneliness — physical; emotional; spiritual — manifests itself in unmet reciprocity. i forget who it was; but someone said maybe you’re too intense for some people; i fear they might be right. maybe i was outwardly less intense before. i remember now; shobhan said so.
everything floating around in multidimensional-space; untethered; psuedo-belonged; painfully so; sharply so. maybe work is the answer; i doubt so.
i forget to power-off my machine lately, because i anticipate more use soon — or i’m in such a hurry to get home & rest. just like it, i, too, am unable to power off. need to, however.
==does the work really help you connect with other people, a?==
or is it a ruse; a distraction; an intellectually-involved avoidance of something far bigger?